Disconnect

Okay so I'm trying this new thing out where I stop using my main social media accounts. HA. Well mainly twitter, because I need Instagram to my fitness motivation and Tumblr bc I need to see all kinds of fashion. I'm trying to shoot for 4 months but thats probably me just going try hard for no reason. I'm just going to use this blog instead.

Health

      Sooo I went to the doctor today, very exciting. Turns out I don't have an infected spleen but acid reflux-self diagnosis is the number one killer. I have to give up all the foods I like- you know, the good stuff. But I guess my health is most important.
One thing I hate about going to the doctor is getting weighed. It's actually so funny (well to me it is); I am so unhealthy right now. Everyday I say I'm going to exercise or eat healthy. LOL yeah right. Well now I kind of have to. *Insert the waterworks.* "some famous workout program," here I come. I swear. I'll try and complete one to get back in to shape like the good ol' days. Oh yeah, I'm swooning over them. Ugh, how long does it take to get in shape?

     Going off topic now, I"m sleepy now: 11:11 P.M with no wish on my mind, or so I say. Goodnight or goodmorning to whoever is reading this. Sorry if I waste your time. Ooops. Not my fault, anyway.

Me

I'm not even going to bother wasting my time talking about how smart I am or if I'm the most beautiful person in the world. I'm just a weird chick making some blogs. it's funny because most people would assume I am insulting myself by calling myself weird and I find that extremely sad. Why would I waste my life trying to be some mundane person. Nahh I'll pass on that. Being weird is great; spontaneity is wonderful. I'm me.

How am I seen by my peers?
I do care how they see me to a certain extent, to be honest. Less than 2 years, then I'm out of school, yet the 10 year reunion is down the line and I'd rather someone not hate me for something I purposefully did to them. I keep getting side tracked so bear with me. My peers probably think I'm *undefined*. Honestly, I'm not the most attractive person out there and am probably low-key seen only as the girl that's funny, but I am okay with that. I still like myself. This really kills me, I laugh so hard at this- because of how I act some people think I'm some weird ass person who laughs at anything. I do laugh at a lot of stuff and  I am playful a lot, not even going to lie, but I am serious when time calls for it. Someone had the audacity to ask me if I laughed at someone who was seriously injured. Cmon now, I'm not some sociopath. This post doesn't even make sense, but whatever.

Anyway, back to my thoughts. I'm a fond believer in following your dreams, whether it be going to a certain college or going to the NBA or whatever. So many people go around just go around killing other people's dreams with their poisonous tongue . Damnit just cheer them on whether you believe in them or not, they could really use a boost. I also have a problem with people who take life too seriously. I don't want to be 80 years old and wish I spent more time having fun. Everything would still work out for the best, right? Live a little, and eat that dessert that you've been eyeing all day or go skydiving or go bungee jumping with your best friend. Live life with memories. You may die whenever but you are lucky when someone spreads the memory of you through the good times you've shared.

who am I?

"Who are you?"- I am a human. "No, who are you?" - I am me. "No, I mean who are you?" - I can't answer that statement in with one flat answer.

With these blogs I sound so cheesy, I'm not even like this in real life 😂😂. Anyway to answer this question I guess I'll just say the answers to these question are laden in my past and soon-to-be posts. I guess I should start making a blog more than once every two weeks. I want to look back on this and laugh hard about how I sound right. I sound like some corny person. My apologies. As far as formality goes, I am leaving it at this post so excuse my slang or harshness (if any is present)

Dreams

The only thing I have that no one can change. I know what I want to do with my life, the only barrier that remains is the path to actually getting there. Annoying, right? There are a plethora of dreams I could tell you, that would take a century so I shall speak on my number one of infinity. Well, as cliche as it might be, I NEED to become an actress. Yes, I need it, want is not a word that can fit in describing my passion for it. I love it, the whole process. Being able to be anyone else you want to be. Don't get me wrong, I like myself, but I'm not the kind of people to fawn over myself like I'm one of the eight wonders of the world. It's amazing- the whole process of acting. Being able to share your passion with thousands of others is beautiful. Anyway, back to reality. I do realize the chances of being a successful (I heavily stress this) actress can be quite difficult, but guess what? Any thing I dream is possible because life is just so unexpected. Now one might ask- why are you telling this on a random blog post? Simple. This is my starting point, because as I ponder my future, I know in my heart what I dream is what I'll become. So this is just a warning for all, I will make it, I will persevere, I will sprint for my dreams with all my might and if need a break, I'll keep running until I pass out. Believe that, you'll see.